Hey Mama, it's me. Bradlyboy. Just checking in since I'm not able to visit you just yet. I miss you and Devin. Oh boy, where do I start with this... I guess you can say life has me beat. I've been trying to remain strong as your grandson, a son and a brother but lately, I haven't been since I've been feeling more alone than usual. It's okay I guess, kind of used to the isolation. I'm sorry I've been a failure most of my life and I'm sure I failed you as a grandson. I want to do better. I hope and pray that I can be. The past three years haven't been easy. Definitely a lot of ups and downs, mainly downs but I'm learning from them that's for sure. I haven't spoken to papa recently but I'll get around to it. Just hate the thought of him always thinking I'm going to ask him for money but that's just papa. I've just been working a lot to keep my mind off things and to keep me busy. No, no girlfriend yet either. Sorry to disappoint you in that department. I know it would be great to have a child but maybe not at the moment. Still trying to focus on coming home at least. I haven't been home in three years since my last visit in 2021 but I'll try my best to come see you.
You know I love our family, no matter how dysfunctional. I miss getting together for church and going out to eat too but we don't do that anymore. My siblings have been on their best behavior and I'm a proud brother of every single one of them. Thankful for Mom Ray and Dad Russ too. They've been nothing but great assistance to my life too, wouldn't be able to do life without them either. Cliffany has a big lovely family now too. I miss hanging around Aunty Rosie, Uncle Archer, Amber and Ava too. Haven't seen them since Thanksgiving either. I maybe see them once or twice a year on occasion but it's okay. Life is busy for all of us since our schedules hardly align either but we make it work somehow. I sometimes forget that we're only getting older and time is ticking.
I could go on and on but I think I'm going to cut it short for now till next time Mama. I do miss your cooking and cleaning and asking where something is and you telling me, does it look like I touch your stuff... I remember you giving me a $2 allowance when I was a kid just so I could go to school and get a snack after school or how in elementary, you and papa picked us up from A+. I'll tell you more when I see you because there's a lot I have to catch you up on Mama.
I already know you're also partying up there so save some food for me like you always do. I love you Mama. I'll talk to you again soon.
