Monique Benitez
To Grandma:
I just got teary eyed and I haven't even finished writing yet!
You are missed.
There are countless memories that I have with you. Some I can recall from memory; the others are triggered by looking at old photographs.
It's crazy to think that when I was born, you were already there: part of my life.
I have seen pictures of you holding me when I was an infant.
Helping me open my gifts on my first birthday.
At such a young age, I obviously didn't know who you were exactly; except that you were there for every occasion in my young life.
My vivid memories start at the age of 6: when our family lived with you in Barton. Everyone recalls how you tended to your garden (I loved your roses). I remember the smell of the porch (because it's where all the dogs hung out). Like Paulette, I remember your favorite tv shows were Maury, The Price is Right, Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy, Young & the Restless. I remember you falling asleep whenever each of those shows were on. And Franny and I would try to play quietly so we wouldn't disturb you. Them sometimes, you would talk in your sleep and Franny and I would laugh (but were also scared: you sleep talked and told me to "shut up").
I remember Franny and I dancing to Spice Girls on top of your coffee table and you would laugh at us or clap along. I remember your crossword puzzles and how you would ask for my "help". You were there for all my piano rehearsals and church performances.
I remember that you weren't a super affectionate Grandma (and that's okay!) So I would try to sit close to you and make you laugh with a funny face. (My dad took after you in that way). I hugged and kissed you anyways because I know you loved it.
I remember the one time I lied to you!! I was SO guilty. I cut one of your crochet stuff and when you asked who did it, I LIED and got in super big trouble. I like, never lied again, especially to you. My mom told me to respect you and what you do & I tried my best to.
I remember moving back to California from the Philippines. You had NO idea. When you saw us, you freaked out and smiled so BIG.
I remember our conversations about God and how you asked if God truly forgives us, no matter how many times we mess up and fail. And I hope I did my best to reassure you that He does.
I remember so many other things. I unfortunately have forgotten some things too. But my love for you remains the same. I love you grandma. I miss you smile and your laugh. I miss your joke. I miss your offkey guitar playing. I miss making fun of you. You are so loved!